i find looking at gifs relaxing especially ones like this

What I do for self-care, in general,

• Make a playlist
• Code
• Watch clips from my favourite shows on YouTube
• Read
• Drink my favourite drink from my water bottle (that water bottle is basically like my bestie now I couldn't be without it)

Silencing the Night Thoughts

I have crippling anxiety, and nighttime is the worse when I can't distract myself by scrolling through stuff online or listening to music to distract myself

So I had to learn to silence or drown out those thoughts using my mind. Which is wild. I've done it ever since I was a child

I have never been able to picture a happy place. But my earliest I need to stop these thoughts so I'm going to imagine this instead was (sometimes still is used it since I was 5) is picturing a blender. Inside the blender goes grass and leaves until they are pulp then they are boiled in water and thrown into an imaginary hole in the ground. Over and over until I fall asleep.

Sometimes I think about having a bunch of crayons, snapping and placing them in a silver pot or pots and those crayons melting into liquid and then becoming solid like a candle.

I make theme lists in my head. Name 5 colours, Name 5 favourite characters ect.