Scroll aimlessly through nonsense online. It's a bad day. I don't have the mental energy to read a book or draw or invest in TV shows or films. I have the attention span for TikTok length content, and that is it.
I listen to music. Nothing that means anything to me emotionally just random stuff for background noise.
I set myself a realistic goal for that day. Seriously, I got up and drank a whole glass of water? That's like running a marathon achievement on a bad day.
i find looking at gifs relaxing especially ones like this
I have crippling anxiety, and nighttime is the worse when I can't distract myself by scrolling through stuff online or listening to music to distract myself
So I had to learn to silence or drown out those thoughts using my mind. Which is wild. I've done it ever since I was a child
I have never been able to picture a happy place. But my earliest I need to stop these thoughts so I'm going to imagine this instead was (sometimes still is used it since I was 5) is picturing a blender. Inside the blender goes grass and leaves until they are pulp then they are boiled in water and thrown into an imaginary hole in the ground. Over and over until I fall asleep.
Sometimes I think about having a bunch of crayons, snapping and placing them in a silver pot or pots and those crayons melting into liquid and then becoming solid like a candle.
I make theme lists in my head. Name 5 colours, Name 5 favourite characters ect.